My heart's prayer...

I am living with vanishing flecks of joy,

And life seems to have turned to an evil mind's ploy.

     My mind and heart are constantly at war,

     Leaving me shaken and disturbed, the worse by far.

Smiles are fleeing and satisfactions are fleeting.

Despair and sorrow are all that I am greeting.

     For days on end, I am stranded in gloom's embrace.
     My own agony and pain, I can no longer come to face.  
All seems lost and yet there's no sign of end.
Fate's strange tricks I miserably fail to comprehend.        
     My existence cries out to be free of fate's grime,

     Before I lose myself to the ravages of time

What have I done to lose my heart's peace?

What can I do, Oh God, for a fresh life's lease?

     Take my pain away, or render me inanimate,

     For I feel forsaken, as though deserted by mine own fate.

Grant me hope so I may live through the fall,

Or wipe me off every living memory once and for all.